On a day off from Grey's Anatomy, Ellen Pompeo is at home under a backyard umbrella sipping a Pelligrino by the pool and savoring the last days of summer. Nearby, her 3-year-old daughter, Stella, plays. Life is good. Thanks to hefty pay hikes, Pompeo's character Meredith, Patrick Dempsey's Derek and Sandra Oh's Cristina were all spared in the season finale plane crash that left Lexie (Chyler Leigh) dead and Mark (Eric Dane) and Arizona (Jessica Capshaw) fighting for their lives. As Grey's begins its ninth season on Sept. 27, I found Pompeo to be extremely grateful for all her good fortune and happy to be back at a job she loves. TV Guide Magazine: I always look forward to our start-of-season chats. When we spoke last time, you were open to the possibility of coming back but wanted to make sure there was a good reason. So...what was the reason? Pompeo: Because I'm not crazy! ABC appreciates me very much and I'm not stupid [laughs]. The network goes above and beyond and I'd be an ass---- to not acknowledge that. And [showrunner] Shonda [Rhimes] thinks she has more story to tell. You gotta have faith in her. God bless her for coming up with this much show over this many years. And what else am I doin'? TV Guide Magazine: Well, I imagine Grey's takes up so much time that you're not free to pursue other offers that no doubt would come your way. Pompeo: It does, but that's okay. They compensate me for it and it's been a great experience. People still love the show. As cynical and jaded as I can get about it sometimes because I've been doing the same thing for so long, the truth is everywhere I go — whether it's Toys R Us — people genuinely light up when they talk about the show. I can't ignore that, either. That's significant. If I'm bringing joy to people and entertaining people as an actor, then I should be grateful for that and act accordingly, you know? TV Guide Magazine: Wow! I can't tell you how good it is to hear you say that. On behalf of all Grey's fans, thank you for that, Ellen! Pompeo: Sure. TV Guide Magazine: Did Shonda give you any sense of what her 'more story to tell' is over the next couple years? Pompeo: What I've heard them say is that this season Shonda wants to see her doctors, who are attendings now, teach. We have had interns on the show before and we've taught. Whether this will be different, I'm not sure. TV Guide Magazine: Are you playing Meredith more mature now that she's an attending? Pompeo: It's always a challenging balance, but it's always my goal to do things that make the character grow and seem more mature. At the same time, they're always going to write certain behaviors that I only have so much control over. TV Guide Magazine: For example? Pompeo: I know the Cristina/Meredith relationship is super integral to the show, but something Patrick and I always discuss is if sometimes my loyalty seems to be with Cristina before my husband, I don't necessarily think that is all that realistic. Otherwise you wouldn't have a very healthy marriage. I don't know why you'd be married if your spouse isn't your number one person. We try to do what we can, but in the same brushstroke, it's just a TV show. We're not really changing the world or saving lives. TV Guide Magazine: Give us a preview of some fun scenes you've shot for the new season. Pompeo: Maybe the audience will be excited to see the new peeps on our show. We have Camilla Luddington [True Blood, Californication and Lifetime's William & Kate], who is an absolute doll. She's a lovely young actress and I think people will enjoy seeing her. I don't know how much the other [newbies] are going to be featured. So far to be honest the focus has been Camilla, who really pops. She plays Jo, my intern. Meredith takes out all her frustrations about Lexie dying [and another tragedy to come] on Jo. I don't deal with my sister's death yet. That comes up I think in episode five. TV Guide Magazine: I can still hear Meredith crying, "Lexie's dead," out in the forest. It seemed so real and heartbreaking. You did something in those scenes that was devastating. How difficult was it for you to play? Pompeo: Thank you. It's not fun. I actually said to my husband the other day, as a younger actress you love the torture and the pain. Acting can be an amazingly cathartic thing — especially for young girls. And then when you get older, settled and very happy in your life, you don't want to go to work and torture your soul and feel that pain. I used to be so into that, but now when someone dies it takes a lot of work. Doing it once or twice isn't hard. It's having to