I like everything under my control, but it's obviously unreal.
Life cannot always be smooth and happy.
Try to live in the present, not the precedent or the future.
The possible sufferings of the future do not consititute my current concern, for it is at my disposal to strive for a better future. I know that, I really do.
I'm mature enough to take responsibility, not for my own, but for my familimies, my carrer, my life. So the next time when the clouds of pessimmisim overwhelms me, try to smile, try to be adjust myself with my own spiritual strength, believing that I am capable of copying my own problems.

I hate this facet of myself. A coward, a poor person.