Who? Where? What?
5:02pm EST Nov 25, 2006
This is something I wrote several years ago... I'm going through a hard time
in my life, and it helped me reading it again. Maybe someone will see it here
and be helped as well.
I am the man who stands for his friends...
but who will stand for me?
I am the man who refuses to play people...
but why am I always being played?
I am the man who loves all...
but not many try to love me.
I am the man who will be your closest friend...
but yet you remain my bitter enemy.
I am the protector of all those around me..
but who will take on the task of protecting me?
Where are the few who are willing to stand up?
Where are the few who are willing to be true?
Where are the few who are willing to love?
Where are the few who are willing to be a true friend?
Where are the few who are willing to protect?
What do I want?
I don't want to stand up for those who won't stand up for me.
I don't want to be true to those who lie to me.
I don't want to love those who will not love me.
I don't want to be a friend to those who will not be a friend to me.
But what do I do?
I continue to put my heart out on a limb for those who hurt me
I continue to be true to all those who refuse to be true to me
I continue to love those who don't even love themselves
I continue to make myself vulnerable...
but what is my return? Pain... betrayal... anger...
I am who I am... nothing will ever change that...
I will not be knocked out. So you might as well not try.
I sit here in anguish not because of the actions of one, but the actions of many
But do all cause pain? No. There are those like me... but they suffer as well.
Is there an ultimate reward? Will all that I'm missing now be repayed? Maybe.
God loves me? Jesus loves me? That is no consolation to me now.
As another tear falls, heaven remains a thousand miles away.
So I remain here asking...
Why do I continue?
Where are those who will be real?
What will remain after you hurt me again?

so let god judge you, you should be his evangelistall truth and worth is from god

..........@雪§静 qiu fanyi

你一直专注于隐蔽真正的自我。你为了掩盖自己的女性特质，不让世人发现，你学到了许许多多的方法。态度、习惯、嗜好，以及语言。你必须耗费大量的语言，才能够欺骗、说服真正的自己。为此，你比任何人都对语言不通这件事感到恐惧。因为只要剥掉语言这层外衣，你就只是一个丢人的男人——只是个劣等生。
　　区分世界与个人的境界是运动——经验。惟有勤勉不懈地累积经验，境界才能够明了。
成人与儿童的境界是咒术——语言。惟有获得凌驾现实的语言，才叫做大人
男女之别，早已不再是单纯的性别差异了。当我们说一个人像个男人或像个女人时，已经产生了超越性别的价值判断。这两者虽然相反，但原本并不是阶级性的。你认为你低劣的那一部分，其实是一种特性，不是劣性，也不是属性。会有女性抗拒这种特性是理所当然的，而有男性喜好这种特性，也不是什么特别奇怪的事。每个人都拥有男性特质和女性特质。
这是均衡的问题，只是哪边的程度较强，哪边较为显著，这部分有个人差异罢了。女性特质较强的男性并不低劣，也不一定因为是男人，就理所当然会充满男子气概。男人就要雄壮威武，必须充满男子气概才行——这也是愚昧的歧视，是一种毫无根据的偏见。这些观点，只在某个特定的场所和时间——文化当中，才有意义。
——《络新妇之理》

意识下的感情浮上意识面时，化成一种恐惧和自厌情感，这就是视线恐惧症的由来——一定是这么说的，对吧？而平野的偷窥行为，是他确立自我存在的迫切情绪之发露。在打破外在规则的意义上，这是弑父行为。在找回与世界的一体感的意义上，这是母子**——
这里所说的母性，只是男性自私自利的母性；这里所说的父性，也只是对男性方便的父性罢了。父性总是理性的、是普遍的外在规则——这根本在直喻男性就是恒常的支配阶级。既然与母性的一体化总是以类似**来表现，那么能够与母亲一体化的就只有男性，而那种关系，就是男性支配、女性服从这种形态的记号化。
——《络新妇之理》