Whenever you refused me, I got frustrated.
Whenever you asked me for help, I won't hesitate.
Whenever you told me a white lie, I could tolerate.
But when you threw them all towards me, I would just blame the fate.

Waiting for your appearance, I saw your pretty red T-shirt.
Accompanied with a skinny boy, you seemed not feeling like talking with me.
I thought he was your guy, but you denied.
I can't remember how it hurts when Isaw his words.
An 'I love you' after every passage.

A saying goes in a soap opera that as a man, when you are no longer in a girl's heart, you can do nothing but giving up.
Have I ever traveled to your soul, and have you ever discovered in mine there is a hole.
Or I am just a passer-by, sometimes picked up when you felt messed up.
I don't know how much I miss our meet, and neither do I know how much you might think of me.

我能说知你这篇我都要累死了么…

I still cherish the period when we were classmates.
And after all you consider me one of your besties.
So turn to me when you feel depressed or sorry.
Forget me when you find your joy and happiness.
……
I'm always alone, heading forwards with just a backpack full of memory.

If I am a secret, how can somebody keep me?

Every night I will miss your laughter, miss our encounter and miss all my failure.
I can't think of what secretly make and break our link.
Boys said,'She's not your girl.'
Girls said,'Go on on your own road.'
Pessimists said,'You will company her with disappointment.'
Optimists said,'She had given you enough intimation.'
Let alone people who said never, I am there forever.

You're nearly a grown-up.
But I don't wanna be one.
You used to tell me that the real life is much more cruel than we thought.
Now, eberything changed.
Enjoying all the happiness with friends, classmates and besties is no longer a major routine after we grow up.

But I don't ever want you to talk about any serious topics with me.
'Cause that's not the kind of friendship I eager for.
Remember what you wrote on my book?
Many years later, we can still sit down, joking and gossiping.
Words came from your pen seemed to be a little unpromising––
I've never got used to your leaving, both physically and metally.

Every time we're going to say goodbye to someone,
we would always hide our true feelings about each other.
Missing each other's company, regretting not cherishing the time we spent together or something else.
I missed, and I regretted, too.
I miss your sensation, your sneer and your,smile.
I regret my misunderstanding of true love, my timidity and my lack of love to you.

I didn't have the courage to leave you.
So I may follow in any way whenever I can contact with you.
At that time please don't just ignore me.
'Cause I,used to be your secret.

@zpz383138820 :Have you ever been going for a girl who regarded you as her besties but refused your love since you met her for five years?

Do as the Roman does. Please reply in English.

我英文不好,原谅我说中文。
抱歉,是的,我有过,3年。我知道她一直没有忘记我。很久以前,她突然地离开,刻意地躲避我,让我如同你一样,甚至比你更加疯狂。渐渐的,我知道了她这样做的理由,我知道她在另一个城市过上了比原来好的生活,我知道我的出现只会打乱她的生活,让她和她的生活改变,所以,我忍下所有的痛,最后倒下对她说了很多话,毅然断掉所有联系,只是不时找人问起她的情况,这段时光是一种煎熬,毁灭人的煎熬。时光一点一点过去,我在慢慢成长,慢慢地懂了很多,慢慢扛起了许多,慢慢学会去把一种束缚变成一种慰藉。2年半前,我最后一次见到她,我知道她现在很幸福,我能笑着与她闲谈,悄无声息中,彼此释然。不去打扰,置之一笑,她能明白,她也能毫无顾忌地飞向自己更高更远的未来。我无数次伤痛过,没有人能体会,没有人能明白,但,我想,作为一个男人,我的选择是正确的,至少,我换来一个最好的结局。每个人都有自己的一段过去,这曾是我最深的痛,或者说是这所谓的秘密。时间,沉淀了所有,让我成长,让我有勇气面对我不曾对任何人谈起的一切。秘密终将不再成为秘密,所有阴影都会散去。
头有点昏,不愿多说,只能说到这,你比我大,我希望作为一个男人,你能懂。