I don't get it when so many foreigns say that they love the country where I am. I don't get it when some foreigns come here and praise this place. And I don't get it when some of them even nationality!
I know it's not right to judge this country 'cuz I was born here and I grew up here and l live here! But I am so sick of it. I'm sick of people's fear to point out the others' mistakes, also their so called face, along with their shame to apologize!
I hate people when they talk 'bout their cold and the little pain. They always make tiny stuffs look so much bigger and more important! It's gross!
I want to be independent 'cuz everytime I ask for something, I always get no, no and no! I am so fucking tired of NOs! That feeling sucks!
And I don't need so much care and protection just like I am a fragile flower which I am not and I am learning to be strong and also I can live on my own. Americans of my age have already become independent. They can live on their own and they do part-time jobs to support their lives which is so cool! And I am dying for that. I am not weak! At least I don't complain 'bout my cold. I keep my wounds and scars to myself. I never make them sound like I am dying because of that! Those are too tiny to attract my attention and they can't get in my way anyway.
I don't attach much significance to money. I just need the adequate money to get what I want. Even if it is expensive, I feel nothing when I give the money out 'cuz I feel right when I get the stuff I want!
And I don't wanna act like a good boy 'cuz I am not. And one more thing: I am hiding on the closet and I am not coming out at this moment.

Having been thru a lot and finally I realize that I'm always on my own and all I need is to be alone. Life will play jokes on me from time to time but I don't care 'cuz I know that I can learn from them. Finally I can get what I want. Let the people who laughs at me go.
AND ONLY TIME WILL TELL.

let it go