I doremember the days I had had which seemed so close to the present while isactually far away as far as most teens concerned. But it seems that I’m not oneof them. I was never the type of kid to fit the environment as soon as got init, laughing outright with the majority of the classmates because ofsomething funny or so. I got used to waiting, for a chance, a challenge, afriend, an acceptation and even myself. All I need now is time and patience—Itold my diary as well as my heart. But as time goes by, things got even worsethat my miss of the past did grow while the others started to lose theirpatience on me—I know it’s all my fault that no one can suffer a weird girl fora long time especially the one like me. “Away! Away!” I tried to talk to myselfin a soft, poetry voice concerned with Shelly or someone but as a matter of thefact that poet isn’t a perfect way to deal with helplessness. As we all know,it sometimes helps increase the burden of emotion when the rosy-blue line hasbeen taken too serious. “Is there anything or anyone I could turn to?”Fortunately when I felt like being a no-where man, I was often able to hidemyself in an ocean of books in the school library no matter what. In otherwords, I’d say there won’t be a place for me if I can hardly find myself in thebooks. And, it doesn’t look like a silly thing to walk along the little sillylake as well as bridge to enjoy a world of isolation especially when thelibrary isn’t open. After all, nature has its original charm that attracts aman with completed heart especially sense of rich emotions and you’ll never bedisappointed by her that Every time you went in it you’ll always find somethingnew whatever you felt inside. And of course this school on the feet of amountain is no exception. So I just put one of my feet on the road ahead, andthen the other, and then got myself next. “Sooner then it seems life turnsaround,” I said to myself as if it is a truth indeed. ”Sooner then” Looking upto the stars while running alone along my way, I thought I shouldn’t give in nomatter how the ease I come or how difficult it will be. I’d try, first of all.I will at least try.

I’d try, first of all.I will at least try.

2014.3

有一个早上，我住校，起得很早，至于走出楼道时只看见粉色的朝阳里自己的身影，还有几枚麻雀，它们，一并周遭的红瓦屋顶都被瑰柔的金色霞光镀上金边，一个梦境。

在冬天对着开着的窗子洗漱的，那是天还未明，我就盯着外面空无一物又无所不及夜空和一盏亮着的的街灯看，直到有同学把窗子关了才觉出冷来

放学后在铺满金色叶子、梧桐夹道的林荫道，灿灿的秋天的阳光从树隙间泻下，叶子闪得耀眼。

和她一起练长跑的那些晚上，我和她在气喘的间隙还不忘抬头看看远远的朦胧的灯火与星光

2013.11

飞跑如风飞跑如疯影子看不出模样看不出表情，然而那是我的一面，扭曲了的黑暗投影。

2014.8

月光很亮。圆到不真实的月起初还含着点微醉的绯红，终于在晚风的吹拂下褪去了，只发散出朦胧的带点黄晕的光

2014.7

雨声、黑暗和沉寂。我多想融入你，我只想成为你，哪怕仅是一小粒无足轻重的水滴。

2014.5