i've been stuck in unrelenting pathos. i couldn't let it off my mind.you're too far away to console me and too indifferent to give me solace. i'm reluctant to misinterpret you.but i do need your positive consolation.now i'm in dread to close my eyes. my mind couldn't cease searching for evidence.i'm so thirsty for such distraction. all in all your frankness should make me trust you more. but i cou