i always miss him no matter when and where, especially in my hometown, I was in home but the heart was with him, I always want to tell him anything happening in my family, the laugh and happiness.
If he had came to see me before Oct 1, I wanted to ask him: “if you want to return home with me?”, I meant it, I am serious. I know he have no time, he controlled by the house loan and have to do overtime job day by day to get more salary.
I didn’t get the coach in first day on Sep 29 and upset, I wanted to ask him if he would consider to have dinner with me? because he had phoned me that he have time to meet me on Oct 1 to apologize for absence of that time. But I know he won’t come, I don’t want to be sad and disappoint once more, so far so good, we just need to keep status now.
I want to tell him my emotion, but, no, I have to keep my mind on. It’s wrong to tell your love to the one who have no special feeling to you. He is strange even random, Sometimes he is so kindly to endure everything and comfort me on the phone or the talking tool when I am scared but he became snippy suddenly sometime, in that time he is unmerciful, I was not surprise, So I meant to short our talk to avoid his burst. I know him more than he know me. He is a common people full of illusion and complaint, of course, he is brave to support the responsibility and working hard.
He had to given up his favor, now who he is waiting? Maybe a girl with much money. Yes, when you lost you illusion to love, you can marry anyone……
铁心珊！
