So in a way, musings like these have purpose. Or at least challenges I can benefit from.
所以在某种程度上来说,这样有目的的思考,尽管会遇到些难以解决的问题。但总体上来说还是大有所益的。
Twenty years from now I imagine I’m going to feel like I missed out on something profoundly heartfelt when I look back on this pivotal scenario and the way it played out. Even if I loosen my grip long enough to steal an introspective moment out on the balcony, somehow I believe I’ll catch myself thinking, “I wish I’d been more assertive!” instead of idly letting life play out scene-by-scene in front of me. Maybe that’s just preconcerted apathy but my brain tends to harbor some deep-rooted necessity to keep reminding me that this fateful meeting could happen at any moment (and of course it could) but more importantly, that I be ready and waiting in the wings to handle it the way I’ve already anticipated.
在过去的二十年间, 我错过了许多,而且每当我回首这些往事时,它们的每一个细节,每一处关键,它们所浮现在我脑海中的姿态都深深地打动了我。即使我不得不暂且放下这一切,好让我能够有些时间走出去自我反省一下。但觉得我还是能控制住我自己的情绪。“我希望我能变得更有自信!”而不是在那像僵尸般的任随光阴在眼前逝去。也许这只是一场注定的冷漠,可我却总是念念不忘这那些在我脑海中深深扎根的记忆片段,使我谨记这种决定命运的相遇可能会发生在任何时刻,而且它肯定会发生。且更重要的是我必须时刻准备并等待着去用我自己的方式去应对。
所以在某种程度上来说,这样有目的的思考,尽管会遇到些难以解决的问题。但总体上来说还是大有所益的。
Twenty years from now I imagine I’m going to feel like I missed out on something profoundly heartfelt when I look back on this pivotal scenario and the way it played out. Even if I loosen my grip long enough to steal an introspective moment out on the balcony, somehow I believe I’ll catch myself thinking, “I wish I’d been more assertive!” instead of idly letting life play out scene-by-scene in front of me. Maybe that’s just preconcerted apathy but my brain tends to harbor some deep-rooted necessity to keep reminding me that this fateful meeting could happen at any moment (and of course it could) but more importantly, that I be ready and waiting in the wings to handle it the way I’ve already anticipated.
在过去的二十年间, 我错过了许多,而且每当我回首这些往事时,它们的每一个细节,每一处关键,它们所浮现在我脑海中的姿态都深深地打动了我。即使我不得不暂且放下这一切,好让我能够有些时间走出去自我反省一下。但觉得我还是能控制住我自己的情绪。“我希望我能变得更有自信!”而不是在那像僵尸般的任随光阴在眼前逝去。也许这只是一场注定的冷漠,可我却总是念念不忘这那些在我脑海中深深扎根的记忆片段,使我谨记这种决定命运的相遇可能会发生在任何时刻,而且它肯定会发生。且更重要的是我必须时刻准备并等待着去用我自己的方式去应对。