August 27
How ridiculous I am!Why amI sometimesjealous of the girls who have boyfriends?Being single is not such a bad thing. For example,I can focus more on my study and avoid seeing someone that is shameless.

August 28
Now,I'm trying to calm myself down. One thing that I must admit is that I'm not a smart girl.The only solution that I can think of is to work harder.Since people around me are so aggressive and ambious,I have no choice but to face them.Though some of them are really shameless and much too paticular about triflie, I still pretend to be knowing nothing about that and treat them in a friendly way.
Do I lead a pretentious and exhausting life? Who knows.

@竹雨冰心 @飘渺生 

抱抱董 董的压力是那么大
其实不用嫉妒别人家有男女朋友 很多时候我们的缘分没到便别去强求 何苦要将美好的初恋给一个勉强的人
至于学习压力 么么我和董一样 自从进了高中 便觉着大受命运嘲弄 可是又能怎地 许多东西谋事在人成事在天 得之我幸不得我命渐渐成了我们人生的creed
We cannot change our doomed fate,only have to aaccept it.If you think it is well worth having a pretentious and exhausting life for your ambition，please don`t doubt and hesitate about your choice.
Dear,please believe you will fulfill your dream somedayO(∩_∩)O~

August 30
I keep worried. Everyone seems to be industrial this holiday, while I just finish the assignment and totally do nothing. Many of my classmates attend extra lessons. So do I,but I virtually haven't learnt anything, forgetting that they charged a lot. I also should pay for my final exam last term ,my poor health!I still can't be used to staying up late every night and feeling stressful all day long.
Life is monotonous isn't it?But I still wanna spice it.

August 31st
My last day of the holday,right?Tomorrow I will be back to the world of chaos. Feeling listless,pehaps I should also add a little expectancy to the life. To be frank, I will become less competitive because of someone's rising. I have already had my day,haven't I? Being endurant.Sitting still waiting for death? Sounds joking ,but I'm afraid I have to.

我一直在默默地听着。

来顶贴，期待盖楼。

顶贴。

Feb 8th
After I unravelled the cruel reality,I really didn't blame those who set the absurd rules but I did detest those who persuaded us that we would still have the possibility to be selected as long as we set about them in future though we were inferior.
I know that many of us are eager to have access to the ivory tower.I just can't understand their crazyness and eagerness. Perhaps Ishould have been eliminated bofore I was born.It seems that I am absolutely a loser in the reality. I am neither ambitious or aggressive.I am so naive that I didn't find the substance of the policy until I was involved in the heated competition.
Poor creature!They may mock at my ignorance and so may I.it's really ridiculous.Lacking talent and ambition, I have an inferior dream——I wanna become a true study-lord.Since I won't be someone's girlfriend in my highschool time,is there anything more meaningful than this?