50、E的有一篇日记,这篇日记是E说给S听的。集数为S01E02

Dear diary

亲爱的日记
today I convinced myself it was ok to give up.
今天,我说服自己可以放弃
Don't take risks.
不要担心
stick with the status quo. no drama,now is just not the time.
维持现状,没有奇迹,现在不是时候。
But my reasons aren't reasons,they're excuses.
但是我的理由并非理由,而是借口
all I'm doing is hiding form the truth.
我所做的一切都是在掩盖真相
and the truth is that....
而真相是。。。。。。
I'm scared Stefan,
我害怕斯特凡。
I‘m scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that...
我害怕,如果我让自己拥有片刻的欢乐,那么。。。。。
the world's just going to come crashing down.
整个世界都将崩塌。
and I... don't know if I can survive that.
而我。。。。。我却不知道我能否幸免。