不知道为什么挣扎着，一次又一次发现自己的不足。这大概是最后一次修改了。就往前走吧

我有点走不动。其实我每次发给别人看都是希望得到表扬。但是什么也没有，我想，一定是自己太差劲了，所以别人没办法开口吧。

但是虽然活不好，但是我还有家人，我没办法太自私地离开。所以就救救自己

我以为今年能好起来的

我动不了，为什么。

Today,I'm peaceful.I feel a little happy after watching some videos about cats and dogs,they are soooo cute(´ε｀ )♡I love them forever.

My English is not very good,actually,I think that I shouldn't write these words in English.But a difficult language make me relax.I must read these words carefully,it can put my heart down.Don't laugh at me,pls...

I dislike the weather these days. The sky is yellow, I can not enjoy the sunshine. It make me very sad...Oh,I feel lost everyday...What happened in my body?I feel.....emmm,I have no power...You know what I mean?My hands,my legs,my back, my heart and soul...I want to cry loudly,really , really ...But I can not do it....I have no power...

Maybe I should visit a doctor?

Oh,English is hard to write...In my high school,I loved sleeping or painting in my English lesson,so,my English is very bad...

我昨天在哔哩哔哩发了这个动态，但是想了想，不要把负能量撒的到处都是，集中在贴吧就好，所以我又发到这里了～那个动态删掉了。

今天状态还好😊很平静，画了两页，一直盯着乌龟看。多肉到了，种多肉花了一中午时间。午休睡了两次，十点半和两点，每次半小时。不敢画第三页因为手麻了。晚上泡脚不小心把水溅到沙发的单子上，因为有那个泡脚粉嘛，所以单子上都是污点……唔，过几天洗吧。

别在这时候，别在这时候，求你了