it is getting late. i need to go to bed now. i have written enough today by now. see yall

I talked to u today. I saw you online and talked to u. Why u kept ignoring me. How was it possible that u did not noticed because you were busy. U deleted my another skype account. So u r hating me now? I really dont know u.

Today the weather is very rediculous. Before my lunch break it was extremely hot. But when i woke up it was raining cats and dogs.
I have never seen this rain before in my life. I had an umbrella with me, but still i was all wet after 15 mins walking. I thought that if u were here, you would not let me to go to work. But now i was alone here, i need to be strong. So i went to work as fast as i can and i was not late. Yay 

it looks like that you are avoiding me these days. it seems that you are telling me you dont like me like before. you will not come on skype as often as before. when i was online, you were trying to get offline. should i go and disappear again? if i did that there is no turning back this time.

i watched a Thai movie, called Eternity. after seeing it, it seems to me there is no real eternity in love. should i believe in you? Should i believe that you will come to see me one day?

tomorrow is another day

cheer up! believe in yourself. dont believe man's crap promises. bullshit

you are always occupied on other stuff. like today, finaly i waited for the weekend and i am home waiting for you. then it is your be right back. this brb is about 2 hours now.

i truly think that i am begging for your love and attention. but you said you are begging from me? what the hell? why it would be like this. i tell you everything, and do everything you asked me to do, but you kept being mistyrious all the time.

what am i supposed to do?

have you got a clue?

?

I felt like thats it. No matter how hard i tried, how badly i hoped, i am tired of your cold back. You said that you was begging, that is bullshit. Everyday, i waited until 11:30 to have a few minutes talking with u, well no talking, but typing.

All i wanted is to talk with u, you cannot even promise this. What else dare i want u to give me? Come to china? Marry me? Catherine, you should stop the stupid wishful thinking.